“But if you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them.”Luke 6:32
For the past few months, I have had some issues with my supervisor at my job. He lives a homosexual lifestyle, but it is his pride and arrogance that makes him difficult to work with not to mention he lies and tries to manipulate circumstances for his own personal gain. I have another co-worker that is homosexual that I get along with just fine. He knows my beliefs and we have a mutual love and respect for each other. However, my supervisor insists that he is also a Christian yet loves to antagonize evangelicals by telling them he has a “husband.” He also uses extremely offensive language throughout the office not so much anymore since he said something crass to my one of my coworkers and I just had to say something about it. Anyway, this is not to bash him, but just to paint a picture of the type of people that exist out in the world. Using my discernment and investigative skills I found out that my supervisor had been lying to me about circumstances revolving around a possible job promotion for me. I was deeply hurt, but should not have been surprised because he practices deceit daily. I called my husband from the car, sobbing. I would think it, but I finally managed after much resistance to get out the words “I hate him!” The moment I said those words, I felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world. I would tell my kids “hates a strong word” “never say you hate someone that is the same as murder.” God knows that is not what I want to do. After that, my husband asked, “can I pray for you?” I said yes of course and he prayed the most beautiful prayer over my circumstance. Then I had to ask the Lord for forgiveness and what was harder to ask the Lord for the heart to forgive my supervisor. I’ll be honest it was really difficult.
Later that day I literally had a Psalms 23 moment, when my supervisor bought lunch for the office and asked me to sit down and eat lunch next to him. I had to sit at the table and eat with my enemy. He also invited his supervisor and another supervisor from the corporate office to eat with us. I wanted to be anywhere but there. Having to put on a smile when I didn’t want to. When the other supervisor showed up, she said hello to everyone. But when she sat down, she looked at me and complimented my appearance and said “Wow you are glowing! Are you happy?” I thought to myself Hallelujah that must be the light of God shining down on me letting me know that He was there because I really needed him at that moment to help me get through that lunch. Not even 30 minutes ago I was crying in the car, then to someone pointing out before my enemies that there was something special about me. God works fast! My attitude instantly changed. I no longer had to force a smile, joy had started to spring up. I also was able to get through the rest of the day with my supervisor no problem.
Almost a week a later, I woke up to go to work. As I was getting ready in the bathroom, I picked up my phone and opened my email. I subscribe to World Challenge devotionals by the late David Wilkerson, if you don’t know who that is, I implore you to read about his life and ministry; a true warrior for Christ. I get his past devotionals daily in my email and I don’t always read them, but that day I did and I tell you there was a word in there for me. The scripture he used was Isaiah 51 and to paraphrase God is going to take the cup of trembling and put it into the hands of those who afflict us. When I read that I was about to shout all over the bathroom except I would wake up the whole house. Later that day at work, I received a call from his supervisor that he would like me to interview for a manager position. The whole backstory to how this phone call arrived is a part of another web of evil my supervisor tried to manipulate. Long story short my supervisor does not want me to get that position for reasons that are selfish to him. His supervisor told me that the person they had considered changed their mind and they are considering me again. They don’t know that I prayed for God to reveal the truth to me about the whole situation and He did. I had already made peace and had moved on, and was no longer seeking that position because I see what worldly ambition does to people and I wanted no parts of it. If this is something God wants for me than I will be obedient. But it is not my aim. So when my manager found out that I would be getting another interview, he did not wish me well instead he looked very nervous, anxious and jittery. Meanwhile, I had the peace that only the Lord gives and I was reminded about the scripture I had read earlier coming to pass before my eyes.
I wanted to rejoice because I know that God is real and he is working on the behalf of his children, but not to rejoice in the downfall of my supervisor. I had to remind myself that my final destination is not his final destination unless he repents and accepts Jesus Christ as His Lord and Savior. If he is still living in his sins and unrighteousness on the day of the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, then he will be in the lake of fire for all eternity. That’s not only true for him but for all who love the world and the things of it and who practice sin. I went from rejoicing to sorrow. Sorrow because he and people like him have no idea how good God is and how much God loves them. We must remember Jesus did not come to call the righteous but the sinners to repentance. It’s easy to love those who are lovable, but if we are to be more like Christ in these final days we have got to love the sinner too. We know what the end is for them. Because we know that end we need to love them enough to not leave them in their sins but to let them know that Jesus Christ died for them and if they repent of their sins and put their faith in Jesus they will be with Him for all eternity in New Jerusalem. My supervisor is not like anyone I have ever met in my life. But there is a reason we are in each other’s lives for the moment. In the meantime, I will continue to pray for him and pray for an opportunity to share the real faith with him.
With the love of Jesus.